Thankful Thursday

I've thought about this post for a few days, and then after the events of yesterday, my mind went blank. Blank and all I wanted to do was post about how blindsided I feel, how my heart is aching, but then I realized, blogging about that isn't going to change anything. So I didn't, I kept it in, cried my eyes out in my sweet hubby's arms while he so sweetly said "we will fight this Brook" (which made me cry more because I just feel lucky to have such a good man in my life). I woke up this morning still in denial, and really upset that life just can't be easier. I mean seriously, WHEN is enough, enough? Then a phone call came from my Dr. confirming what he said it was Yesterday, and I was just thinking, Thanks dude, don't you know it's suppose to be "thankful thursday", how the heck am I going to write a THANKFUL post after this phone call!?! It's funny how life can just throw these things out of left field and BLINDSIDE you. I laid in bed sobbing, and for a minute wishing I had a maid/nanny so that would allow me to be able to just lay in bed all day & throw myself the biggest best pity party. But then I remembered this quote, Some days there won't be a song in your heart. Sing anyway. ~Emory Austin. So I laid there pondering things about life, how unfair it can be, and really thinking about the good. I've always wondered what compells people to run marathon after marathon, especially when they are sick... and NOW I know. I made a vow to start running everyday, to need to at least get out and walk everyday with the girls (good thing I got a new stroller) because I don't want to later be wondering WHY I didn't do this. WHy I took it for granted. That has to be one of the main reasons people do this, because they NEED to LIVE and really LIVE their life, while they still can. I'm not ready to tell, and don't know if I will ready for a while, but I promise to eventually post about this huge elephant in the room. I'm not going to start running marathons, but I am going to get outside and RUN everyday.

Yesterday after I got home from my appt, I just needed to get out and DO something. So I jogged behind Libby as I pushed her in the stroller. I took in how clear the sky was, how the sun was setting and how it glistened perfectly on the leaves. I'm thankful for just how beautiful it was, and the crisp air to breathe in was wonderful. She LOVES our new stroller. As I'm unbuckling her after we are done, she looks up with this puppy dog sad face, and says no no no, MOE!! She says "MOE" for more, it's pretty hard to not just take her on another walk when she does that. That walk helped put things into perspective, and was good for my soul. I'm thankful to be able to go on walks with my girls, I won't ever take that for granted now.

Presley was SUPER happy before I left for my appt, and I'm just thankful for her smiley little face. Her smiles help me feel better, even when it's hard. Look at that double wrist fatty bracelet, I'm thankful for those too. Babies are suppose to be fat!


I'm thankful for my girls. Thankful to be their Mama (I know, I know, I say that every blog post & every TT post, but it's because it's true) I'm never in the pictures, so even though I don't look awesome in it & it's pretty grainy, I LOVE that it's of me & my two precious girls.

Most of all though, I'm thankful for my family. For my sweet hubby, and how supportive he is. He may tick me off and annoy me sometimes, but he means everything to me & I'm lucky to be his wife. In all the craziness that life throws, I'm just thankful every night that I have a family to be with, and who is always there for me. In times of hardship & sadness, family is always there, and I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful for my Mama being there for me to cry to yesterday. I'm thankful for one of my besties, who listened to me cry while Aaron kept adding his input & making us laugh, and for dealing with my crappy phone service & all the dropped calls. I'm thankful I have loved ones to share the good times and the bad times with, because that is what life is all about.

Here's the most up to date pic of my sweet little family, my most wonderful blessings. I'm thankful for every single day I get with them, and I'm thankful to know how precious life & your health really is.